:: friends ::

some blackadder's christmas really is nothing special, vulgar, direct jokes, but they NEVER fail to give me the hysterics.
better than rying over spilled milk, or finding that your golf shirt seems to shout - just screw it...
actually, i am tempted to just pick up a three, seven and nine iron and have 9 holes for breakfast....
gotta go that way (more or less) anyway.
alternative pan might be to go to paris, then to senlis in order to find out what happened to my very lovely friend freddie whose family used to live there. last i saw of him were pictures of his baby taken in hong kong- view to the harbour.
a round of golf with him might just be the new years treat.
only one guy who totally vanished- havent't managed to find him so far
ahh the apst, part of the above mantioned christmas carol, no??

diane heilman, my friend in florida. nice photo- photographer seems to be in love with her (her husband, my friend dr lloyd heilman)

my aquarian set-up may play a role... once in a while i am pretty down.
just as i was about to hit rock-bottom, three things occurred. first, i was studying a piece by Schumann for my beloved guitar. when i read some statistics about the melody and the composer, i read that he lived for 46 years. surprise, that is my age, and i admit, it shook me. i know that like many geniuses he died in very unhappy circumstances. i am impressed by his music, and i admire his life, his passion for music, his compositions. the brevity and intensity of his life shook me as i was looking at the figure 46. so many promises unfulfilled....
the other two things that occurred where less dramatic, at the same time more surprising. two mails from dear old friends (yeahhh.. with that number 46 lingering now i better be careful talking about old!!!).
one was talking about the glam-factor, that ability that the anglo-saxons really know about... all about style, looks, hair, more style, originality...
the other addressed the cham-factor, the chameleon's ability to adjust.
all three things that occurred gave me a major push to just get my act together, and i am very glad that i can not only talk, but there's lots to listen to. it built me up, the idea about unfulfilled promise, even if mine may be so much smaller than robert schumanns, and my dear friends who after so many years of distance still know a lot of what is in my heart.
soo????? optimisms is ultimately a very aquarian quality.... and keeping a few more promises, living up to glam and cham definitely woke me up. i want to do more, and my style. my worst business days came when i had to represent people, ideas, style i could not identify with. same in private life. my feathers may be ruffled at times, but they are in my colours! than you, friends.

silvia frahm, ilse, and ursula rosenberg- my dear girlfriends- here they sit with me and celebrate my x-th birthday. in the back the atlantic ocean, what potential for loveliness this house held, and how i quietely enjoyed the solitude on that island. after the 15 years in central london that was a great contrast, and only due to my dear lydia grund i had that party which was just wonderful.

i sometimes wish i'd see more of all of them, but my life seems to go so whirlwind wherever i am- must be me. there are so many great things to be seen, done, appreciated!still, friends are the most important, and i must keep that in mind.

Conny did it- she ran a Marathon. looking at her placement she did really well- awesome. What a girl!